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Soul Fragments and Spiritual Hangovers: A Candid Talk with Cheyenne
Have you ever felt a thunderous spiritual wake-up call that roars that there is more to your existence than what meets the eye? Cheyenne Moore experienced her spiritual awakening at the most inconvenient moment possible: two weeks before her wedding. "It basically feels like somebody gave you shrooms and forgot to tell you," she explains with refreshing candor.
Details
In this deeply personal conversation, Cheyenne shares her transformation from a rigid, sarcastic corporate manager to a compassionate spiritual explorer seeking to understand her place in the universe.
The journey wasn't easy. Cheyenne describes her dark night of the soul as "feeling like I've died ten times" and openly discusses suicidal ideation that accompanied her throughout much of her life. Through hypnotherapy, meditation, and various healing modalities, she discovered past life connections that explained present-day physical ailments—including a fascinating revelation about an arrow wound to her ovary in a previous indigenous incarnation.
What makes Cheyenne's story so compelling is her balanced approach to spirituality. She's not interested in toxic positivity or bypassing human emotions through spiritual platitudes. "I'm not a love and light person," she admits. "I'm a full spectrum healer and feeler, and I think every emotion is valid." This grounded perspective offers hope to anyone struggling to integrate profound spiritual experiences with everyday life.
Whether you're experiencing your own awakening, curious about past lives, or simply seeking to understand the deeper aspects of human consciousness, this episode provides valuable insights without judgment or dogma. Cheyenne reminds us that awakening isn't about becoming someone new, but rather remembering who we've always been beneath the conditioning and masks.
Ready to explore your own spiritual nature in a safe, authentic space? Connect with Cheyenne on social media platforms under "Safe Space with Cheyenne" and discover resources to support your unique journey of self-discovery.
References
Dolores Cannon Website: Dolores Cannon
Gregg Braden Website: Gregg Braden - Bridging Science, Spirituality & the Real World
Berlin Codex: The Lost Gospels of Jesus: Gospel of Mary
Nag Hammadi Codex: The Nag Hammadi Codices and Gnostic Christianity
Contact
Email: safespacewithcheyenne@gmail.com
Spotify: Safe Space with Cheyenne Podcast
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/safespacewithcheyenne/Facebook
TikTok: Excerpt from Jesus and the Essenes
Important Information
Past Lives Cafe is intended to bring you uninterrupted glimpses into others' past life experiences. Some have regressed in a group setting or individually in their dreams, as part of a tribal ceremony, through a guided meditation, with a certified regressionist or QHHT practitioner. Please contact Chione@QuantumJourneyGo.com with any questions about this modality or to share your own experiences on the podcast.
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Welcome to the Past Lives Cafe. I am your host, Keone, an intuitive energy worker and acclaimed past life regressionist. Come with me as we journey through the spiral of time to forgotten places. I am excited to have today with me a published author and a passionate podcast host of Safe Space with Cheyenne. Cheyenne Moore believes in creating a safe space to elevate others' life lessons and teaching many topics of human expansion along the way. Hello Cheyenne, Please tell us all about your spiritual journey and how you and I ended up having this discussion.
Speaker 2:Thank you so much for having me A lot of big questions right off the bat, so I'm going to try to bullet point them the best I can, because we could talk all day about the last six years of my life. It has been truly a journey. Six years of my life it has been truly a journey. I have an absolute love for QHHT, not only based on my personal experience with it, but just reading all Dolores Keenan's work and doing brainwave research myself Like what does Zeta do? What does Alpha do? What does Gamma do? It was another level of loving not only every human but the human in me and how my body works. So I was really excited to come on your show and talk about this. And then when I got your questions today, you're like tell me about your spiritual journey. I'm like how do I condense this? I like to hopefully talk about it in the most grounded format that I can.
Speaker 2:Over the years years like it started off as, like I had a spiritual awakening. Greg Brayton calls it an Akashic remembering because you're just unraveling and going back to your true state. You're not necessarily becoming a new person. You're going back and developing the parts that you left behind. So we get into like soul fragmentation, masking as far as mental health, and you're really just going back to who you were and what you wanted as a child. Who was I before the world got me? And what did I love before the world got me? And it was music, writing, puppy dogs and running around in the country, playing in creeks, being with nature.
Speaker 2:I think all of us on a spiritual journey, we have little taps from the divine over our lives that maybe at the time our logical brain wants to kick out and then in retrospect we're like, oh my gosh, that was you. And there's other times where you get dick punched by the divine and that is my story. I have both the little inklings and then I have the boom you're going to wake up today thing. So I've just actually celebrated my six year anniversary of my spiritual awakening. It's April 15. I say 14th and 15th, but 15th is when I celebrate it, and it just so happened that I woke up two weeks before my wedding and if anybody's had a spontaneous kundalini awakening two weeks before your wedding, it basically feels like somebody gave you shrooms and forgot to tell you.
Speaker 1:Good timing.
Speaker 2:Great timing. It really was. So I have just lost the career that I had built up for eight to 10 years. I was a manager in the service industry for a wonderful company that I still love to this day, but the person I was, the decisions I was making and even the people that were my mentors were just not the proper mentors. It wasn't a place for me to grow. I remember dreaming about like having time to journal and write and go and do like a yoga certification and sit in nature. And what would it be like if I could feel happy, the way I feel in meditation, in my job, and the more that I would do these things and then go to work. Work became so miserable. Became so miserable. So for the darker part of my career, like I remember, the person sitting in front of you would come out and spurt, or maybe around the right people.
Speaker 2:Music was a huge part of my life growing up. I was always around it. I definitely took it for granted, like it was always going to be there. So when I moved to Kansas City the first time to go into corporate management, I would get invited to shows and I would refuse to go, not because I didn't love music, but because I knew I was going to be so miserable when I went back to work the next day because that made me so happy doing here.
Speaker 2:It really did feel like a stepping stone, obviously with the retrospect that I have, but at the time I was not the person that sits in front of you. I was very jaded. I was very rigid. My sarcasm could sting you in a way, a dark empath could, and I didn't give a shit about your feelings. I'm your manager. You have to listen to me and I don't care. Like. There are people that I care about and there are people that were very manipulative and a pain in my ass and I acted out on that and I felt good about it too from a testimony standpoint.
Speaker 1:Because you were miserable and it just gave you something palpable and someone tangible to react to.
Speaker 2:To say that you're unconscious and you have so many people telling you that's who you are, so I had so many people telling me for years. She's just going to tell it like it is. She's a very blunt person. It's not that she doesn't care about your feelings, but this is how she sees it and she's not going to hold back. So if you think about sitting in a group of people and something happens and everybody in the group sits and they tell the truth, but they're actually going to speak up about it to the problem, I'm the person in the group that's going to stand up and be like, okay, you guys can be little bitches and talk amongst yourself and I'm going to go directly to the problem and I'm going to tell them how we feel. And that's how I was all of my life, like I would be standing up for people, I would be standing up for what was wrong, getting into a lot of trouble because we get into the respect your elder misdirected quote that I have found. I really didn't like who I was. But I also didn't know who I was because in my bio you'll see that I grew up in two different households, two completely different lives, even though they mended together in a Midwestern aspect there were still a lot of differences. So I would be like clocking out of one life and then clocking into another.
Speaker 2:Here we don't go to church. Sometimes we do. We have a Catholic background. Here we go to church every Sunday. It's about his background. We don't curse, we don't drink. We're very respectful here. Yes, you can curse over here, but don't go crazy. Musical.
Speaker 2:There's so many aspects of both sides of my childhood. And then on top of that we were built by a community of people. It was where aunts and uncles had a hand in it and grandparents raised us, extra babysitters, friends, families, so many chefs in the kitchen of building me and my personality, and I didn't really think about any of this. I really was unconscious. So a couple of weeks before my wedding I was feeling not like a bride should feel, and it's not that I hadn't explored anything like spiritual before, because I had what I would call like my first Kundalini awakening when I was 20. And it was a very private and expansive experience that I still have trouble actually vocalizing the story to this day. But because of that experience, that very short little bubble phase, I was directed to information about it and we didn't have Google at the time. We had Ask Jeeves, do you remember that search engine?
Speaker 1:I do remember Jeeves. He was our internet butler. Yes, I do remember him.
Speaker 2:And you can text him too If you have a question. I thought it was the coolest thing ever. I'm like the worst part of my teen years of my life. I'm really struggling to transition. I've already dropped out of college. I went on tour with my boyfriend's band afterwards, which I think is a thing you should do if you're going to drop out of college. But that's just my journey and sounds great. Yes, it really was. It really really was.
Speaker 2:But still you have the math gang in your life and the personality, the good parts of you who everyone thinks you are, and then you have this undertow. So this undertow was coming and just pulling on me and dragging on me, and I have no concept of emotional regulation. All the terminology that we get today for mental health is not a thing. So if anybody's listening, they're like, oh, I wish I would have got my shit together and I was 19. Babe, we didn't have our curriculum, it was not built and it was completely out of touch for a lot of us. So for me, my protective element was that sarcastic bitchiness. I will speak up for you. You come for me first, I'm going to give it back to you, type thing. And I knew there was a soft, sweet girl underneath, but I was also terrified to put that out into the world, because it just seems so often that I felt weak being that nice person or I felt like I was taken advantage of or walked over. So I definitely had a very hard shell over me.
Speaker 2:When my career went away, so did my identity, because I came out of a very abusive relationship and I went straight into working for this company and this company's family values, their training, the way that they really brought you in and made you feel good about yourself to work there, and even the opportunity I gave myself over to this company for almost 10 years and I was happy to do it because they gave me opportunities to travel all around the United States, even internationally, training. I was the head of training teams. When I moved away I was like, oh, I don't have to process anything that I ever dealt with in my path, so I'll just move away and move on with my life. That bit me in the butt a few weeks before my wedding, because the same energy that had awoken me into my tragic life at 19 and 20 years old, that same energy was coming back.
Speaker 2:I guess I've always been a little out there. I noticed the energies. I've seen ghosts since I was a kid and I've been okay with it. I've always known that there's more out there. So when that energy came back to me and enveloped me like a fly leaf song, I was like, oh, something's coming, something big, something transformative, something I don't even have definition for. But I do trust this energy. I just don't know what you're doing here two weeks before my wedding, because I don't have time for this shit.
Speaker 1:But that doesn't matter when it comes to the divine they really don't care when they show up, do they no?
Speaker 2:they don't like when it's time to wake up. It is time to wake up. My mother-in-law invited me to do a yard sale with her and we were just sitting there chatting. I'm sure, like you, love visiting psychics all through your life, whether you're like traveling or you're like, oh look, there's a palmistry sign, let's go get our palms read Like.
Speaker 2:I'm that person too, and it's definitely because that belief system isn't really allowed where we grew up. There's not a lot of that anywhere. It's extremely conservative. Everything if it's not Jesus, it's the devil, and you really grow up, even if half your life is like that. You grow up with that in your subconscious. It's not like you're going to disappoint God. Your family is going to disown you in a sense. They're going to look at you with judgment and they're going to condemn you for going outside of the Holy Bible. I hate to just stick it to like Christianity, because it isn't. It's Methodist, it's Baptist. It's in so many little boxes is what I call religion, and I grew up in so many of them that I was extremely conflicted.
Speaker 1:But I also knew that when Hocus Pocus came on every year, I was just enthralled by it. Absolutely, You've hit the nail on the head. Regardless of Catholicism, Mormonism, with all of the different branches that lead back to Christianity, the bottom line was fear.
Speaker 2:Yes, absolutely. Thank you for saying that. So yes, the fear was, but great thing is we were given footprints in the sand when we were kids, before I really ever remember going to a church, I remember getting the footprints in the sand poem and we got it because my mother's sister had passed away a month after I was born and that was on her funeral program. So that poem became like a staple in our family. So the first time I met Jesus wasn't in a church, it was footprints in the sand. So the first time I met Jesus wasn't in a church, it was footprints in the sand. So let me get this straight. There's a really nice guy that looks like a hippie that I can talk to whenever I want and he's never going to be mad at me and he's always going to be there to love me and protect me from a child's mind. Cool, I have an invisible best friend, so I talk to Jesus all the time. People would never know it, especially in my darker days. They would be like that girl needs Jesus and me and him would just be sitting there cackling together. I might have been smoking a joint while I did it, but who cares? You know I wasn't there for their condemning nature.
Speaker 2:The confusion of religion really messed me up when the awakening happened. But I trust the energy so much that when I was sitting there with my mother-in-law she said did I ever tell you about the psychic? I went to ask about my future and your future. And I looked over because if you saw my mother-in-law you wouldn't think this woman goes to psychics. But apparently she was going to this metaphysical fair and she goes and sees the same psychic over and over and over Her favorite woman.
Speaker 2:I remember the energy going up my spine. I always feel those pings I call them little epiphanies and I was like tell me about this psychic. She said, yeah, she spoke of you. You always got to audit. Are they just telling her what she wants to hear? Is she going to tell a detail? But maybe she shouldn't know about me, so validating but scary it is in her reading. Basically she was asking our man. She was really checking up to see if I'm the one you know what I'm saying. The psychic let her know that I was an empath and I would be good for the family and I would be good for her son. I just knew that I always struggled with absorbing everybody's energy around me and then acting it out almost Like I would be a perfect mirror for everybody's BS. I went through that a lot in my life. I know. You know what I'm talking about?
Speaker 1:I definitely do. I thought being an empath meant something different than what it is, but I've come to realize that what I thought was a coping mechanism scoping out the room to see who's in a bad mood, who's in a good mood, what potential personality traps we have to avoid for the day I thought everyone did that damn.
Speaker 2:Yeah, therapy will be like oh, you suffered a childhood trauma where people weren't there for you, so then you had to scope out the safety, which I'm not saying, that's not true. I'm just saying you're leaving out the spiritual aspect of it. Yeah, I think you're right. Yes, I believe that in a way, but I've been like this from the inception. Yep, so wait, a psychic told you I was at impact, which, to me, I was like she's a real one, she's got a real connection and I got a real problem.
Speaker 2:I need to talk to this lady now and again. This is like a traveling, like every three month fair. So she lives out of town. I have no idea if I can contact her, but I need to speak to her right now, please. And she's like well, let me just go see when the fair is and, lo and behold, synchronicity speaks so loud. The fair started that day.
Speaker 2:For the next three days, I was within a 15 minute radius of this woman who had spilled the tea about my spiritualness to my mother-in-law. Uh, I'm really sorry, but I have to go. I drove there immediately. She told me what she looked like and my favorite part about it was she didn't read with like Oracle or tarot cards. She read with playing cards. That's another thing that I think is really important, because she sees lines and symbols, that she has a language built up with her guides and she works with St Jude directly. St Jude stands behind her and moves through her. It's a beautiful thing. She's actually a dear friend of mine now, but the original meeting with her I sat down in front of her and this woman just looked through me.
Speaker 2:I do not claim intuition at this time. I do not claim clear senses. I know nothing about spiritual awakening. I am a fawn of the forest and I am sitting in front of this woman with my heart shoved to the back of my chest. It's about to split through my spine and she's looking down the cards and she's like didn't you say you're getting married soon? This does not look like the heart of a gonna get married soon woman. I got some things on my mind that I really need to talk about. My heart felt like there was a rope on the other side and there was someone pulling my heart in the back of my chest. It wasn't me. But I also don't understand heart expansion, heart opening. I emphasize zero definition besides what I wrote down in my notebook at 20 years old and I haven't found that notebook yet.
Speaker 2:So I sat there and had a very expansive and very undeniable reading with this woman, where she not only pulled out the definition for what was going on with me spiritually, the something that I was holding inside me since I was a child, she pulled a memory out that I forgot about until she said it and I was like there's no way, shape or form, you could know this. It just it opened me up, like there's no way, shape or form, you could know this. It just it opened me up in such a big way. And she let me know yeah, you're awakening, like you're about to just go, I don't have time, for I continue to walk around the fair and I found this beautiful blowing tent and if anybody would have saw that tent, they would have walked in and even if it's a danger, don't come in. The tent was so bright and I was like what the hell is this? And there was a woman there. She was doing it's like biofeedback. She did her own system but you put your fingers in, it scans your basically the auric field. She gives you a printout to show you where your chakras are, and 47 pages of amazing information. Then she has a frequency machine with quartz crystals for each chakra and you put binaural beads on, you lay on the bed and the quartz crystals with basically colored lasers are moving all through your body. Ooh, spirit and science, let's do this. So I'm surrendering and releasing all these really heavy things in my mind, this person, I would say. It's like pulling on my heart space, this doubt, this fear, this. Who am I? What's going on? And I lay on the bed and as the frequencies move through my body, I'm convulsing on the table Not dramatic, but my body is doing this involuntarily. The investigator in me is like what's happening? I felt amazing.
Speaker 2:After that I ended up calling a woman that had been a wonderful mentor for me, a medicine woman, I call her, and she also has psych, and I call her as a favor for a friend. And she goes oh honey, are you okay? You're waking up. There's a third person that day to talk to me about the awakening, because not only is it really hard for your left brain to understand invisible things, but the lady from the bio-well technology gave me a sheet of paper of my chakras, chakras that I wrote about in a notebook at 20 but could not just comprehend like invisible energy centers, like whatever close the book. Move on with life. Here's my chakras. I printed out a scientific piece of paper between the psychic. I also went to a birth chart reader two weeks before that. I should have said that, but this is question one. I'm really trying to get through this.
Speaker 2:The birth chart reader, the psychic, the bio well person and now this woman that I've been working with for a year on herbalism, natural remedies and indigenous rituals they all said the same thing about my heart chakra. They all said the same thing about my energy, about my awakening. I am a believer in synchronicity and not coincidence. So I was just like, okay, I'm just going to sit down on the ground and I'm going to close my eyes and I'm just going to talk to God whatever God is to me, because I'm still struggling with that terminology. So I lay there on the floor and I did a little bit of yoga to move my body around. I don't know what's going on. Something's happening, something's opening up and I could feel my heart expanding and what I now know is a heart chakra expansion and a third eye blowing open, but when you don't know if it's extremely terrifying and you feel like you need to go to a psych ward or, like I said, somebody gave you shrooms and forgot to tell you.
Speaker 2:At this point it felt like acid. And then I heard surrender in my head and I was like, fine, I surrender, please, please, let me go break this. Break all of this. If this isn't me, just break it. It was such a moment of surrender where even my body was moving and getting all of this crack energy, like I was a vase that was just breaking and it was beautiful because I was in pain and I was in bliss, but I was crying and I felt free, but I felt scared at the same time. I felt like I was a butterfly that just busted out of a cocoon. I didn't even know I was in the cocoon and I have to get married in two weeks and I have no definition for any of this shit, so it's kind of scary. So I went, I played that night. I didn't tell my husband anything, because my husband's a supremely normal person and why, do we always end up with the normies.
Speaker 2:I don't know why that is he's got to do a lot of the physical stuff right. He makes sure that stuff is put together and I definitely have my role to play in that too. But Landon came in so strong with the provider role in the okay, you're raping, I'm just going to make sure, like rent's paid. So I have a tremendous amount of gratitude for what Landon has been to me in the last six years, because I would have probably been homeless if that were the case, I truly could not properly function consistently in society at the time that this was happening.
Speaker 2:It's like you think you have one awakening, you think you have one dark night of the soul. You think you only have to judge your subconscious one time and then you're like, oh, I'm gonna go be a guru. No, that's not the plan. I finally woke up because I had the craziest prophetic dreams the next, like one to four nights and I have in previous childhood things. I've seen stuff in my dreams and it had come true. So again, that resonance of that inner child was coming back and connecting to me. So I rolled over and I told my husband everything and I just said everything as calm as I could. I said, hey, this is what happened. When I see your mom, he knows I'm into the spiritual stuff, but not the level that I was I said this is what I saw in my dream last night. This is what's happening to me. This is how I feel, but I want you to know if you don't want to marry me, you don't have to marry me, because I don't think this is going to stop anytime soon.
Speaker 2:I've called one of my best friends who also went through a spiritual awakening about four years before I did, and I watched her online and I was like, oh, this girl's losing her mind. But she wasn't. She was going through the same like energetic cleansing that now I found myself in so I call her quick and I was like I think what happened to you is happening to me. And she was like I am on my way and I hadn't talked to this girl in years, but she was like a childhood best friend of mine that we had lost touch with. I need definition. I'm gonna lose my mind with what's going on with all of this. And she's like I got you and she literally saved my life, staying with me and teaching me all the things. I would be like this is what's coming up and she's like that's what this is called and I would have a notebook and I would be writing down spiritual hashtags. I'm going on Instagram and reading memes and looking at everybody before me. And what book should I read? You're so hungry when you wake up.
Speaker 2:I don't know how good of a bullet point that is, because I could continue to go on with that, but because that happened to me, fast forward a few years when I got better footing on my ground. I met so many amazing people in the spiritual community that not only like my love for all these people that have helped me, my slow process of bridging the spirit and science, but also the undertow of me as suicide ideation that has been a very dark best friend with me my whole life, from a very young age, and writing and music were the two channels that really helped resuscitate me over and over and over. So when you go through the dark night of the soul, all of that stuff comes up and I knew that I was in danger of ending my own life like consistently through the process and I knew that what had happened to me? If that happened to somebody where I came from, they would end up in a psych ward and it would be called psychosis, potentially split personality, did, like you name it, like a lot of really big things which I'm not going to say. That's not possible. I'm just going to say we're leaving the spiritual out of a lot of Western medicine. So I figured, go back to your inner child.
Speaker 2:What do you want to do? You always want to be a writer. I'm going to be a New York Times best selling writer and I'm going to write about my experiences. I'm going to publish my poetry. I'm going to lay it all out on the table. Whether I'm the hero, whether I'm the villain, I'm all the characters right. So I'm going to pick up the pieces on the ground that I want to be me and then I'm going to write about the others, because I'm not ashamed of all the things that I've done.
Speaker 2:I was unconscious until the age of 28. And then my life turned into a rainbow spectrum. I'm going to do what I want to do when I was a kid, which is speak with my gift of gab, and I'm just going to find my way back to me and whatever falls away in that meantime, I'm going to send it away with love, and there are things that have fallen away from me, but I don't know where it fits. So when back to me, and whatever falls away in that meantime, I'm gonna send it away with love, and there are things that have fallen away from me, but I don't know where it fits. So when it fits, you bring it back to me, type thing. And it's definitely been a journey.
Speaker 2:I have had so much fun reconnecting with the right hemisphere of my brain, which should be the feminine aspect, and I have really just been through a crazy journey. It's not oh, it's been love and light and it's so blissful and I love incense and crystals. I'm like I feel like I've died like 10 times. I feel like I could have physically taken my own life a good three times out of it and I just like being transparent about that, because there's too much saturation in any spiritual conversation where people are using very big words that normal people do not understand, like if you go to someone and you're like I'm going to hold space for you and they've never heard that in their life, doesn't really mean anything to them. Starting the podcast really saved my life because I knew that there were more people that had went through experiences, not necessarily exactly like mine, but they had that transition. They connect with the collective, the all.
Speaker 1:You're absolutely right. I think everyone's spiritual awakening is completely unique and completely the same. The prompt is different, the wake-up call trigger is different for each of us. Intensity of holy. I have been walking around with blinders on my whole life. Feeling is the same. I hear it every time I talk to someone, no matter what it is, and I loved how you said, cheyenne, that you would have kind of small inklings along the way, and there are some people that just build over time and they start putting two and two together and then that intense feeling of oh my gosh, my eyes are finally opened. It appears to be just as strong in them as it is in those of us who had that dark night, which, to your point, is a lot longer than 24 hours. I'm questioning why am I here, what am I supposed to do with this and why is this so painful?
Speaker 2:It's existential. You can creep into nihilism before you ever creep into bliss. When you're getting into it, I would try to explain it to my friends that would ask me about it, and I was on the phone with my friend explaining life lessons and karmic contracts and all of these things and moving through, I thought I did a really good job. Explaining every moment is magic, every moment is beautiful. We should be playing, we should be stressed so much. And his takeaway was oh so like none of it really matters. I didn't even have context for nihilism at the time because, like I've had those thoughts but never the definition. Then I was just like no, everything you do matters. It just feels boring because you're used to being a multi-dimensional being that can do this really quick.
Speaker 2:But now it's like a tortoise on marijuana when it comes to manifesting and learning and this free will that all the religions talk about, oh my gosh, you actually have it by choice, day by day. Am I going to take the left or the right? Am I going to keep this bias? Am I going to kick it out? Am I going to write that book? Is it going to stay a dream? Every choice you make opens up, I'd say like a multiverse of opportunities yeah, the future's there, right, but you're molding the future Every step of opportunities. Yeah, the future is there, right, but you're molding the future every step you take. And that is not taught enough. Free will is taught in like a, like a mystical sense, like you.
Speaker 1:You have it but you don't it is taught as a concept and not a verb. My sister sister one time said you have a choice to be happy, yes, and I thought, yeah, but these terrible things are happening. She's like that's a choice for you to think about it that way, yeah, but when?
Speaker 2:you're that down in the darkness and someone tells you that you want to punch them in the face. I may have you just do.
Speaker 1:Yeah, I may have. I may have, and it was probably last week, but Loving the truth.
Speaker 2:Thank you so much.
Speaker 1:So did you throughout this awakening or remembering, did you see yourself in a past life? Or what prompted you to even pick up Dolores Cannon's books and even pursue a QHHT session? Wonderful question.
Speaker 2:I was born with dangerous curiosity and when it came to anything in the spirit realm, I think once you wake up to synchronicity and realize that when you're a baby, you do have somebody like guiding you towards information and towards people, I think the misconception is, if you get guided to somebody, that they are a safe person, and that is not the case.
Speaker 2:I was guided along to meet a bunch of people. I met idols and I met anti-idols. I met people that strengthened my intuition and I met people that strengthened my discernment into what to look out for as far as poison practitioners and people who wanted to siphon your light off you. And that's really hard to go through when you're going through the dark night of the soul, because I've noticed people put other people on pedestals based on how long they've been in the community, what certifications they have, especially if they go to a healing event, whether it's reiki or whatever you want to do. There's like a subconscious pedestal where you're like, oh, that person pulled a dragon out of my ass last week, so you know they're powerful.
Speaker 1:So I, I. Yeah, there's a part of you questioning am I feeling this because I'm supposed to, or am I feeling this because it's happening? I know what you mean.
Speaker 2:Exactly. I want to believe this so bad. But how do I integrate this into real life? So again back to writing. I just wrote all of it down into a notebook. I allowed myself to be open. I allowed myself to be for lack of a better term kind of crazy about it. Pretend you move to a new town and in order to know your new town you have to submerge yourself into the culture of the town. That's what I did with every modality that I came across. On top of that, the show was about showcasing people's modalities, so every time I would get a guest, they would tell me what they're doing. And QHHT keeps popping up. I'm just going to start reading Dolores' research, because I was already studying the body through yoga certification.
Speaker 2:I was already obsessed with brainwaves. Theta is literally my favorite brainwave Besides gamma. There is absolute healing frequency and power in theta. When it came to like past life stuff, I had realized there were cyclical things coming up that didn't necessarily feel like they originated in this lifetime, but it definitely felt like I came in with them From a young age. I believed in karma and reincarnation. I came in with them From a young age.
Speaker 1:I believed in karma and reincarnation, which is another reason I really struggled in the church. That is amazing that now that you have the words to put to those feelings or understandings that you had as a child, it's called esoteric for a reason it means hidden.
Speaker 2:It means hidden for a reason because you have to have a certain level of consciousness to access the information. And it's just as simple as a parable in the Bible where Jesus talks about not casting pearls on a swine. Do not cast hidden or higher consciousness information to the lower realms. And we know that from Plato's allegory of the cave. If you go and you try to weaken somebody, they will just call you crazy. They'll get mad at you, like how dare you break the life that I want to live, which is their free will, pulling all these spiritual labels that come with it? What clairs do I have? Do I want to be a Reiki master? No, that sounds weird to me, but if that's what you want to do, I support you. I just want to be Cheyenne. I just want to write my experiences. I want to learn piano again. I want to sing. I want to raise my daughter. I want to garden. Yeah, do I want to talk to people and help people that are just waking up in a sense, but not like I'm your healer. I have your answers. I'm your connection to source. I want to redirect you to you.
Speaker 2:I had the same psychic reader who I went to the first time find the same wound. She found the wound at tarot reading after she had found the wound in a Reiki session and I had been. It wasn't QHHT, I was just hypnotized for a healing session and I was able to get the vision back in the meditation. So, basically, I found a tribe that I was a part of, but I really can't remember who it was. Now, basically, I was indigenous. We were being raided by a bunch of white people and I thought that I was killed by the invaders. But I was actually killed by someone in my tribe while it was going on to make it look like I was killed by somebody else.
Speaker 2:This woman was a very jealous woman, okay. So she took an arrow and she stabbed me right over my left ovary or even on it or something, and then she basically tried to kill me and the person that I was with came over to try to save me. Is when that happens to you the first time and you're like did I really see that or did I just see that in my imagination? I do find it weird that I had always had issues my whole life with my left ovary, whether it wasn't ovulating properly. Cysts only grew on that ovary, a bunch of physical issues with that specific ovary.
Speaker 2:And then I, months later, go interview the terror reader for her episode and we do a reading afterwards and she's looking down at the six of diamonds Do you know when there's an arrow in your left ovary? Still tell you about this arrow, who made this arrow? And she's like it's an actual indigenous arrowhead from the tribe that you were in. And I was like this has to be real. These women don't even know each other. They don't even know that I had these readings. Like I found this, this wound, four months ago and I've been working on it. Like I don't need someone to pull the arrow out.
Speaker 1:I need myself to realize it's there to heal this part of me and funny you should say that about the self-healing ability. Were you able to focus any sort of healing properties to that?
Speaker 2:area. Oh yeah, I did reiki training. With all due respect, I think I took reiki from a demon, I'm not gonna lie. She dabbled in things that you don't dabble in as a reiki practitioner, and I say that because I'm transparent and my show is called safe space with cheyenne. So if you're a poison practitioner and I work with you, I'm telling on you, you can hurt people. Anyways, they had good concepts. They had concepts that they twisted for their own human desires. But I did learn a lot.
Speaker 2:But it wasn't my first time around Reiki, so it was easy to investigate the BS in the situation. And when I worked with a couple other people, they would be like you need to work on your feminine. You need to work on your feminine. The feminine is so oppressed and so broken. Not only are you picking up on the stuff I'm actively working on when I leave this classroom, you're picking up on the whole collection. They all wave their hands over my ovaries.
Speaker 2:And then I got with the safest practitioner that I still would go to to this day. I would be like can you help me? I don't need you to pull the arrow out, that's between me and me. I need you to validate what I'm seeing and I trust your channel. So I went back to her and she put her hand over my ovary and she said this is a wound that I could take out easily for you, but I would be overstepping what they want from you.
Speaker 2:So just to remind you, you don't need anybody, you don't need me. You don't need tarot readers. You have it in your hand. You need the belief. If you don't have the belief, dig deeper in the subconscious and find out where that belief comes. It might not be this lifetime. So that's when I get into a lot of throat shock or trauma, because I've had a bunch of that while I was a child and all through just working in a man's world Through the years of all the spiritual people that I've worked with, they're like do you know how many times you've been killed for speaking the truth? No, but that makes sense. It wouldn't be the first time that I was hit or struck for telling the truth. But knowing that you were telling the truth and then somebody was just mad at you and tried to shut you down, it's extremely healing because you almost think you're wrong when you get gaslit for so long.
Speaker 1:I've been killed a lot in past lives for sure, and it either had to do with jealousy or speaking about stuff that went again right against the norm or against what they wanted you to say, like the status quo, I think, is probably the best way to say it, which is what is the thread that connects? Whether I see them several times and we go through different past lives together, or if I do a past life reading and then they have a QHHT session, regardless, I'm always looking for the thread, because until we find that then an arrow in an ovary is just a one-time anomaly no, it wasn't just a one-time anomaly. No, it wasn't just a one-time anomaly. You were hurt because you were a threat and they threatened your legacy.
Speaker 2:My own tribe. That is what was astounding about it. When I first heard about past life regression, I had looked for a practitioner when I was like 20 or 21. And it was nowhere near me, so I did not do that. I found this website, this meditation, and I will never do a past life guided meditation by myself again, because I was laying in my bedroom. I walked down the stairs and I opened the door and I woke up as an indigenous person with the same patterns on my feet and the teepee was on fire. The great thing about that little breadcrumb is years later it was easier for me to believe because I remember the beadwork, I remember the fire. But when the story connected that it was someone of jealousy in my tribe that had killed me, it was another woman who literally stabbed me in the middle of a battle. I bet this person is incarnated in this lifetime with me. I have no doubt that this woman exists in my lifetime and I bet that she has a lot of hate towards me for a reason she doesn't even understand.
Speaker 1:I just think it's interesting that the ovarian wound is an attempt to hurt someone's legacy or to shut you down from speaking in the future. The other thing that I find super interesting is, as you're coming into your femininity and opening up that other side of the brain, you're also realizing the injury to femininity and anything female reproductive related is so tied to hormones, is so tied to our intuition, our sense of oneness. That comes to us a little more easier, I have found, than men, necessarily probably because of that receptive nature. That's my convoluted theory, anyway. But you also said that you started out before this process of awakening with. It felt like very strong male energy, masculine energy. You spoke your truth. You were in people's spaces. You were going to tell it like it is, which is assertive, true.
Speaker 2:Yeah, if I was a man, I would be worshipped right now Like with the way that I acted in business, I would have owned my own store.
Speaker 2:I ended up awakening, in a sense. I've always been guided by a higher power, whether I had the definition for it or not, and because of that, like I can sit here to this day and have these very vulnerable conversations with you, where I'm not a love and light person, I'm a full spectrum healer and feeler, and I think that every emotion is valid. I just think that there are certain emotions that need to be transmuted through a proper channel.
Speaker 1:I think that was one of the things that awoke for me was compassion. I always could tell what was going on and feel what was going on. But when the dude, the woke manager, hater, was pounding his chest, my initial reaction was first you hurt my feelings and now I'm mad about that. Now I want to throat punch you, right? That would be the initial human reaction. After the awakening I began to look at him like a walking wound and I wanted to say after the flip, honey, I know you don't feel respected and I know you feel emasculated a lot of times in life because you've been raised with some outdated rules on what proper role models really are and this situation right here has just pushed you right out of your comfort zone.
Speaker 2:I realized in the beginning that was my new defense mechanism. Where I see you here, I'm going to give you a free mini reading about yourself. I want to show you why you treated me that way, and it wasn't out of ego or out of spite. You've never had someone tell you the truth before, have you? You don't know who you are, do you? And it was like this ultimate love for people. Um, but my husband had the same conversation with me, but mine was. It wasn't just how people were physically treating me after the awakening, it was the telepathy afterwards I'm hearing of their moms in the hospital, their boyfriend just cheated on. They don't fucking want to be here. And then it's like that love of the collective from a soul point where you're just like ramdosh says treat everybody like they're god dressed up in drag one of my favorite things ever like when you actually try to embody that.
Speaker 2:That is when you get that pushback the most, when you want to, that compassion. That's when you're going to get combative people to come back and really test, like turning the cheek in an embodiment.
Speaker 1:I've seen a lot of clients for QHHT. About three or four of them have had some level of self-loathing that they either could identify why but didn't know how to get out of it, or just generally believed that they were not worthy of continuing on their life path. There was only one person that had spoken out loud suicidal ideation and when I asked them do you feel like you want to hurt yourself? They said no, but it would come and go call. To a certain extent is the fact that we are and Cheyenne this branches all ages, all genders, all sexual orientations, I don't care how you package the body, they're all saying the same thing they hate themselves, they don't see the point. They feel like life is a punishment, to a certain extent because of the pain that they're experiencing, whether it's external, internal or both, and they look for a past life regression to help see them through.
Speaker 2:Yes, I think that's powerful. I've been studying many forms of religion since I've been in the church and just recently in the past couple years, because I always wanted to find like epiphany or reincarnation or anything, and I found in really really early Christian texts that it will actually talk about reincarnation and then the theory bears that they took it out because people looked at it as their own reset. I've gone too far, I've messed up too much, I've sinned too much, so I'm just going to kill myself and start the clock over. So, as much as I want to think everything is for control, I do think reincarnation was one taken out of the Bible to separate itself further from Hinduism, since most of christianity's basis is paganism, hinduism and zoroastrianism. When it comes to dolores's work about suicide because my qht session is actually on my podcast on spotify I was hypnotized for two hours my connection from the past life to my present life, and then we asked my subconscious a bunch of questions for humanity.
Speaker 2:Dolores was talking about one thing that happens if a soul just keeps killing itself over and over and over. They take too big a bite out of their soul plan. It's like credit hours in college, right? Your spirit guide is like I think you need like maybe five or six hours in like a part-time job, and they're like I'm gonna take 16 credit hours, I'm gonna do a car payment, a cell phone and work 60 hours a week. You're driving the train into a wall and you picked it, wait your free will and then you incarnated.
Speaker 2:So when it gets too much, and these people just reincarnate over and over and over, they kill themselves, they kill themselves, they kill themselves and that killing is like stained on your blueprint, not like in a negative sense, but let's kind of backpedal and figure out why you keep hitting your own exit plan. And she said there is a thing where they will reset a soul if it continues to kill itself over and over and over. And that is so rare that she has only met one in all of the hypnosis that she has done that she met one soul that killed itself in so many lives and then it was literally reset. So that's why this soul was struggling, because it came into this incarnation as like a baby, first incarnation soul but its whole blueprint was like translucent behind it of all of the other lifetimes that it was like we can't do it and, as we all know with energy it's going to transform, so to say that they could reset the soul. You're still going to have this translucent blueprint behind you of who you were and that person was struggling with that.
Speaker 2:And there was a time in my journey where I was like that's it, that's it, I'll just die, I'll kill myself and I will go. Hey, when I was on Earth, dolores Cannon told me that if you kill yourself and you should literally go, anyone existing more, you guys, will reset me. That's how crazy I allowed myself to be in my notebooks. I wasn't really going to do it in an instance, but I was like where is the relief in this?
Speaker 1:And I think what you just said is perfect to the extent that most people don't want to die. They just don't want to continue. They need relief yeah, it's just.
Speaker 2:there's so much. You know that disney movie soul. Did you ever watch that one? I don't know. One of my favorites, oh my gosh, watch it and then email me because you're gonna be like there is a part where these souls are covered up with all like this dark stuff. So this team of basically ascended masters is what it looks like in the spirit realm or the astral realm. They go and they wrestle these guys because they turn into creepy black monsters. They wrestle them, they draw a circle around them. There's a lot of indigenous references and then they sit and they start playing drums and singing to it and all the layers start falling off and their true essence is there.
Speaker 2:And that's what I think the awakening is about, from like a human consciousness standpoint, is who you are is not actually who you are. And if you go down the path of knowing thyself, there are plenty of biblical scriptures where jesus will tell you truly aramaic translation it's knowing yourself is knowing god, knowing yourself, know thyself in whatever translation that you want. When you know yourself, you get linked into the same, like love that an artist writes a song about when you think of the Beatles and they're like all you need is love. I know people want to say they're on acid, but a lot of their music was written in an ashram after their first two albums and they tapped into that divine frequency that a lot of people in this day and age are rising up to again. But a lot of the spiritual information could easily be inverted. The spiritual warfare is happening. That's a really cool dualistic perspective and it is valid in the linear timeline that we live. You're building your intuition and you're building your discernment and these were given to you.
Speaker 2:I did the scripture thing, I did the church thing when I was a kid. I went all the way around. I studied all the cultures that I could, all the languages that my tongue would let me twist into, and I came full circle back around and I have a lot of Bibles like the old ones are so cool, like they just have so many cool hidden apocryphas that got kicked out by a bunch of other people. And now that I understand that it's more like symbolism and poetry and metaphors, now I understand why I started writing poetry in fourth grade and why I love allegories and why I can sit there and be like, oh, when the two become the one, that makes total sense to me. But if you're just unconscious and if you're not embodying scripture and you're just reading it because you think when you get to the gates of heavens, you're going to be like, guess what? I know Timothy 4.12 by heart and they're like, yeah, but did you live it? I think we're coming into the consciousness level where you have to embody it and that is really tough. So I'm not going to be like this is the good place and there's a point system. But the Bible actually does say a lot of really cool things, but you have to have ears to hear it properly and you have to have a sight to see it properly. And just to wrap this up, this is my favorite If you look at the Berlin Codex or the Nagamati's, they house a little bit of Mary Magdalene's Codex that was found with the Gospel of Thomas, when you start the part where she's like Lord, I saw you in a vision the other day and he said good of you to not waver at the sight of me.
Speaker 2:She was like how do people see visions?
Speaker 2:Do they see it in the mind or do they see it through the spirit? And he said they do not see it through the mind nor the spirit. They see it like in between the two. If you put the hemispheres of your brain together, like when you pray, you're bringing the energy centers together and you're actually a part of the singularity. Then you have eyes to see, then you have ears to hear, then you have a cheek to turn and you understand so much more than what you were seeing when you were unconscious. And that is my favorite part about waking up is being able to look at the Bible. And that is my favorite part about waking up is being able to look at the Bible, being able to go into any church, being able to talk to anybody with any religious background and just look at them and ask questions and be curious. I don't have anything to prove to anybody, but there's also like a lot of other mundane 3D things I have to do that annoy me, like laundry and mopping to do that annoy me like laundry and mopping.
Speaker 1:Tique, not Hung, says if you mindfully mop, then everything about that moment is important.
Speaker 2:That's very true and I mean it really is about being in the present moment and again like sometimes I can do that, and then sometimes my hormones are like I don't care. I'm on the spiritual jargon right now. I just cleaned this mess up, I'm not doing it again, really being human, you know there's so many serious spiritual people out there that I'm like God, you are no fun for someone that can see devils and angels.
Speaker 1:Really like relax.
Speaker 2:Okay, good God, you know, and I've had that moment too, where I was like I think I'm just going to go live in an ashram. I think, as long as people like you and people like me and your co-hosts and all the other people in the community remain transparent about the fact that it's light and darkness coming together, it's not eradicating your shadow self. Just put on like hindu symbolisms and pants that are very loose, fitting and start doing yoga and be like I'm a vegan and you think that's enlightened and that's just a spiritual ego and everybody goes through it. It's a rite of passage and I just want to help people. I don't think you need your psych ward. I just think you need to sit down and dig out all that bullshit that's in you, because I am you, babe, you are me, plain and simple.
Speaker 1:How can people get in touch with you?
Speaker 2:Thank you for asking. I am active on TikTok under Safe Space with Cheyenne. You'll find all of my wonderful raffles there. Right now I'm decoding like very historical churches that were built out of stone masons, so those are really fun. If you want to listen to my podcast, I'm on all streaming platforms, specifically Spotify, and I also have a Facebook page called safe space with Cheyenne.
Speaker 2:If you need any like questions where you don't want the world to see, I am truly a safe space. It is not just a brand. If you need to get something off your chest, if you need me to take something to the grave for you, hit my DMs on all my platforms. I'll be happy to not only encourage you to keep going, but kind of like. I don't do public readings or anything like that anymore, but my channel is always open when I talk to people, so you get to talk to me, you get to my talk to my higher self, so she'll probably recommend you a book, and I get to play Pictionary with her in my third eye. So that is probably my favorite part about talking to anybody that's sent my way is, you know, I don't want you to feel alone and I can't hold your hand and I'm certainly not your guru and I'm not your source energy, but I can recommend you a really good book and a couple of really good podcasts.
Speaker 1:I'd love that. I am going to make sure that all of Cheyenne's information on how to reach out to her and follow her are posted in the show notes, and any of the books that we discussed during this episode will also have links posted in the show notes. So I'll be following up with you, cheyenne, on getting some of those. Yeah, I can't wait. I thank you so much. You have honored me today. I am. I've just loved talking to you and I can't wait to talk with you again on the other podcast yay, I'm so excited too.
Speaker 2:I can't wait to have you on mine as well, girls.
Speaker 1:Thank you, my dear, thank you. Take care. Thank you so much for listening. If you are interested in my services, visit me at wwwquantumjourneygocom or drop me a note at pastlivescafebuzzsproutcom. Stay well and be present.
